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Wishing and Wanting Weightloss While planning a Wedding  .. NOT WORKING! Will power Went out the Window With any Wealth We had.   -Whatever!!  Wishing you Well ... We'll talk Weightloss next year

Weigh In...

Well I am the exact same weight as last week (said with a tinge of saddness, but just a tinge) At least I haven't gained anything. Smiles. I am still avoiding all things carb, but I do believe I have fallen short in the sleep department. I have been getting 3 to 4 hours of sleep instead of the healthy 7 hours required for actual weightloss. It's not my fault, with my daughters up coming wedding, it's just way too hard to sleep. I will start walking in the morning with the bride to be.. tomorrow, so that we can both look our best for her big day. Hopefully the exercise will tire me out! My goal for this week is 2 lbs... we'll see.

You knew I wasn't dead, but I bet you thought this blog was...

  I survived my summer!!! I could just leave it at that, it would take much less time to type. I won't however, because the last couple months deserve at least a highlight reel. Let's see... this summer had lots of fun, and a little bit of stress. My stress came in the form of work, and no, my work is NOT stressful, but I have never worked while my kids are home, and for half of each day this summer that's is exactly what happened. There was a time in my life that summers were not my favorite because the kids were all home from school and it was just too much work, but my kids are older now and the last couple (until this one) have been amazing. I am happy to say that we did survive and happy day , they are back in school.
  Here are some other things worth mentioning to catch you up to date ... I finished my ninety days doing P90x with only missing seven workouts total( bummer is that four of the workouts were in the last week... crooked smiles), missed workouts were due to visitors, my bff visited twice with her family, my mom also twice, once with my brother and sister, once with my dad. We had two birthdays in August and one baptism, three kids started college. We had two day trips to raging waters, I had gained fifteen pounds by the beginning of September, and my first daughter got engaged! How's that for  highlights! I'm exhausted just thinking about it.
  My intention was to blog when September started, but that is when I stepped on the scale. Since the is a weightloss blog I figured it was not very motivating to start posting with so much weight gain. I do however, want to keep my blog real, and when you eat whatever you want for two months and stop exercising all together... you gain alot of flipping weight!! I set a goal to start blogging again at the beginning of October and pulled out my low carbing big guns. I am happy to report that as this morning the scale read 167.5 lbs., that ties my lowest weight for the year, and even beats my last post by a couple of pounds. I have not had ANY sugar, flour, potatoes, or corn in the last month. It has not been easy, but totally wort it! I think one of my downfalls of the summer was not posting to this blog, without the constant accountability I really start sliding... but I'm back baby!! I would like to lose another ten to fifteen pounds before the wedding which is December 28th, guess who's dieting clear through the holidays? Do you want to join me? If you lose weight during the holidays when everyone else is gaining ten pounds you look twice as skinny... smiles!

Update

My only update is... that there is no update. I've been feeling really cruddy with a couple different sicknesses. Since I last posted I have missed two workouts due to the cruddiness that I just mentioned. I have not stood on the scale because I don't want to know what it says. I have not been amazing on my food intake but I have not pigged out either so when I get on the scale next week we will see where everything ends up. I kind of wish it were the type of sickness to help with weightloss...only kinda...ok, nevermind, I don't want that kind of sickness, just the weightloss.. smiles

Weigh In...

Sorry that I didn't post my weigh in on Monday, it's been a really busy week. The scale read 173lbs, which is down 4 lbs. Smiles, plus extra smiles because I still ate whatever I wanted on the weekend. I can't wait until I eat right clear through an entire weekend, it will be interesting to see how nice the scale is to me then.
I have been working my boo-hind off during my workouts and my body is feeling stronger all time. I've had lots of compliments lately, so hopefully I'm looking trimmer even though I'm not losing a ton of weight. Life is good and I feel good. What more could I want?

Holy Push-Ups Batman!

55 minutes of Chest, Shoulders, and Triceps then 16 minutes of Ab Ripper X.  I pushed as hard as I could and by the end I was sobbing! I don't know if I'll be able to hold a pencil tomorrow, but tonight I did my best. That's all . . . Goodnight.

Weigh in ... or NOT !

So this was my first week on the P90X diet and I'm sure some of you are interested to know what the scale read. Alas, this cannot be, for I was a weak soldier in the weightloss war this week.  My week started great, I was writing down everything I ate, tracking my calories and portions of protein, carbs, veggies, ect. Wednessday I treated myself to a little frozen yogurt, very little, and I had a dairy portion to use so it was all good. Then came Thursday... and again, I did well for most of the day. Then the evening came, and so did the rationalizing. I wanted frozen yogurt again, but I had not bought any for my poor carb filled freezer, so sad." Well", thought my well rounded, perfectly will powered mind, " ice cream is EXACTLY like frozen yogurt! Smiles!!" - yes, my brain thought the smiles- wicked brain. I crossed off a dairy and a fat and ate exactly a 1/2 cup (right out of the measuring cup to be sure), and wrote down the 120 calories that were contained fortwith ( ya, I don't knbow if that is a word, or if it's spelled that way, or if it would even be used that way, it just sounded cool). Anyway, at this point I figured I was still good and when I woke up on Friday I was down 2 lbs, woo hoo, so excited. That is when I got a little too sure of myself (I blame it on my brain, remember it had all ready convinced me that yogurt and ice cream were the same thing), and gleefully reminded myself that it was my anniversary. I proceeded to persuade myself that I had been doing so good on my diet and exercise that I could eat whatever I wanted for the rest of the weekend. I know what your thinking, " Sherri, that is a pretty big leap, yogurt, to ice cream, to WHATEVER YOU WANT!" Well what can I say? Why couldn't you have spoken up before? Why couldn't I have one of your rational brains instead of this one that has continually tempted me until I had doubled my wedding weight + 20 something pounds?
Without dragging this out any longer, those of you who have followed me for a while, you know that I can gain abnormally large amounts of weight in a very minimal amount of time. Weigh in at 177lbs, ya, I know, stupid brain. Unfortunately I"ve grown attatched... crooked smiles. Yesterday I started again and did well till after dinner, then my friend who I've told you of before, "left over Father's Day cake" called my name and I ran to it. I knew that this was the wrong choice, I'm not that dilusional, and I and ate a piece as quitely and as quickly as I could, hoping beyond all hope that one of my precious children wouldn't find me and ask me "You're not on your diet right now?"  I hate that question!!! 
I thought long and hard about not posting this week because I'm not real proud of this side myself, but you know what, This is me... This is real!! This is Not an easy journey, but it is a journey I'm going to finish! I've decided, that for a while, I'll have to start posting everything I'm eating again since my own "good sence" hasn't been kicking in. Next week  hopefully, I can post exactly how this new diet is working for me. Thanks for listening... have a great day!

"Just my Thoughts"

Being overweight has it's benefits ... every time I do jumping jacks I have my own cheering section. Unfortunately it is my upper thighs clapping for me, but I take encouragement where I can get it.

Weigh in .....REALLY?

Once again I think I am going to make changes to my diet. I got on the scale this morning and it read 171 lbs. That is totally the WRONG direction... up 2 lbs .. so sad. Am I depressed? Heck no! Should I be? I have busted butt for three weeks and I know, weight up or down, that my body has benifitted from the hard work I've put in. Having said that , something has got to be changed, cause' you better believe I'm not going to do all this work and gain weight. I know myself way to well, and all it will take is waking one morning in a delightfully hormonal mood and my cupboards and refrigerator will shake in fear of the monster released on them. Today, however, I am in control (for the moment) and I think a small change in diet is needed. Ok, maybe not that small, but I tell myself that so I that I know I can do it. I am switching to the P90X diet plan with a few revisions that I might have to adapt as I go along. Biggest difference between what I'll be doing and the actual plan is calories. The plan wants me to eat 1800 calories a day, but I really think they are catering to fit people who want to become super human, not 40lbs overweight. I know that you have to burn 3,000 more cal. than you eat to lose l lb, so right now I will be aiming for 11 to 1300 cal. a day. I will be following the recommended structure of the diet though. A rough explaination would be split up into units of about 100 calories.   5 of protein, 1 fruit, 2 veggie( only 50 cal. each), 2 dairy,1 fat,1 carb,1 snack and 1 condiment. I think this will provide me with some energy I have been missing out on and yet hold me accountable so that not all 1300 cal. come from carbs like they have in the past. This is going to be harder to follow because when you are eating few enough carbs your amounts of food and fats are not limited, as you can see, they are now. Wish me luck... I would really like to NOT gain this next week.
This is the start of week 4 of this excersize program, it is a rest week...but I don't get to rest! Rest week just means that I don't lift weights this week, I still have 6  hour to an hour and a half workouts, we'll see how it goes. Oh, forgot to mention instead 8  8oz glasses of water a day , I need to drink 8  12oz glasses.  The bathroom will quickly become my best friend ... yuck.

Weigh in....

So Monday the scale read 169 lbs.... so I'm headed in the right direction. Some things I've already avoided this week; baked ziti, homemade donuts, fruit pizzas ( the ones you make with sugar cookies, smiles), and homemade bread sticks and pizza. The weight is not coming off super fast with P90X, but everything is firming up rather quickly. I have not missed any workouts yet, and I'm in my third week. I'm still very impressed with the workouts. I have found that I'm not real fond of working out on Saturdays, but I plan on keeping it up. When I started the workouts all of my push ups were done on my knees, I can now do about a third of them the good oldfashioned way. I still think it will be a miracle if I can ever do a pull up, but my goal is to do one before my 40th birthday, so I've got three years... we'll see.
My boys (Anthony & Nathan) have found a new passtime during church. They sit to my sides and play with the extra "soft fat" that hangs from my arms. Some of you might find that gross or depressing, but not me, I have to bring less pens and paper now...... SMILES

"Just my Thoughts"

I've heard that bigger muscles will get hungry and eat your fat so.... I'm all about pumping iron. Lucky muscles...a feast awaits you!

Weigh In...

Ok, here it goes.... the scale read 170 lbs, yes that is up 3 lbs since my last posted, but I will survive. smiles The only thing I'm really bummed about is being knocked out of the 160's when it seems it was so hard to get there in the first place. Well if there is a program that will help me get there, P90X is it. I do think I need to maybe up the amount of carbs I'm eating because I don't want to go into starvation mode and have my body start eating up muscle instead of fat. I'm going to do more snacking on nuts this week and see if I feel a little better. Just in case if haven't stated it enough, I love the P90X program, results or not ( I can't imagine there not being results), this is something I see sticking to.

My butt has been kicked!

So I just finished my sixth day in a row of P90X... wow, every last part of me is sore! I started with the lean program, and I'm so glad I did. They have been great workouts, but nothing so hard that it is discouraging. To me they have been extremely enjoyable in a sweaty, kick butt sort of a way. The hardest thing for me so far was how busy my week was, sometimes I was starting my workouts at 10pm, but I pleased to say I didn't skip a day. My favorite workout was the yoga, it totally was not easy, but in a weird way, calming and exhausting at the same time. I could not do all the moves but I found myself getting excited for the possibility of being able to do all the moves in the future. I'm not a big fan of lifting weights, hopefully these workouts will change my mind, maybe when I start seeing my body change. By the way, I don't think my body will have a choice, if I keep up the program, my body WILL change. For my fist review.... two thumbs way up.
Stayed below 20 carbs a day, vacation weight not coming off as fast as I would like, not quitting anytime soon. smiles

I'm Back

For all those who thought I might've been out of the blogging world for good... I'm back. Note to self... blog when taking a break from dieting 'cause maybe then I exercise a little bit. I don't want this post to sound overly negative at all, because I'm not upset that I took the last two weeks off. I do wish, however, that my body did not rebel like it does. I feel a bit like the staypuff marshmellow man with a sinus infection. I always feel so terrible when I'm not eating what I should, ok, not when I'm eating german chocolate cake balls (I made three different batches in the last two weeks), but soon after I feel yucky. In my over all health, weightloss plan of two years, I might have set myself back a month, but that's OK.
I asked my husband for a workout program called P90X for my birthday and I started it yesterday. Six days a week there are different hour to hour and a half workouts. There are three basic 90 day programs: lean, classic, and doubles. I am planning to do them all in this order. The lean program seems to be easier on the joints, and till I lose another 20 to 25 lbs. I think it's the smartest choice. I did my first workout yesterday and I actually really enjoyed it. There were some things that were a little too difficult, but I'm looking forward to the day that I'll be able to do it all. This might sound funny, but I'm really excited to get right back into my workouts. My short term goal is to lose what I gained in the past two weeks and to feel good in my skin again. I won't post my weight until next week so at least the water gain portion of my weight gain will be gone. I figure it will probably take about three weeks to get back to where I was. (Don't worry, the cake balls were worth it!) Smiles

Stand By.....

Ha Ha ... don't worry haven't forgotten my goals, just taking a mini vacation. I put my pedometer back on today, but Scotty is taking me away at the end of the week so not back to my diet yet. I'll be back with a vengance next week. Enjoy Life!! I'll check in soon.

Change of Plans

I made a decision on Saturday, I decided to take Mother's Day and my Birthday off from my diet. I do realize that this might not speed up my weightloss but it may do a lot for my sanity. With this choice I have also decided not to weigh in until the week after my Birthday. I figured I could probably enjoiy myself a little more if I wasn't worried at what the scale would scream at me the day after. My goal at the end of these two weeks is to have maintained. I weighed myself Saturday morning and I had not gained or lost throughout the week. I know that this will put behind in some of my goals, but I also need to prove to myself that I can take these little breaks and still be OK. I will still report in on my exercise because I know that will be key to maintaining. I hope all had a wonderful Mother's Day.smiles

Gramma Jeans

So I needed to run to walmart last night for allergy meds, for some reason my allergies are crazy awful right now, and I decided it wasn't in a hurry to get home because I still had lots of steps to get in. I was looking around and saw some jeans that said they had a slimming panel and I thought what the heck? and I tried them on. Well I've described my adventures in changing rooms before so I thought I new what I was in for, but to my happiness they totally did not fit...they were too big. I quickly got dressed, went over to where all the jeans were and pcked up 6 different styles of size 10's. Back into the dressing room I went to start trying on all the jeans. Every single one of them fit!!! OK , two of them gave me a muffin top so they weren't very attractive, but still ...SMILES. I might not make my weight goal for my birthday, but check this goal off baby!
 So did I buy any new jeans.... eww no, even when they try to be stylish, walmart jeans look like gramma jeans!! Anyway, besides the point... Happy Day

Weigh In...

I can't believe how busy I've been ! I will try harder  to keep you up to date on what's going on with me, because it is way harder to stay on track when I'm not checking in. I got on the scale yesterday morning with huge hopes of maintaining my 4 lb weightloss from last week. I am very happy to report that the scale said 167lbs. That's right, down another 1/2 lb. This is the first time in 16 years that I have stayed in the 160's for longer than a day. Yipee for me!!
I know some of you are checking up on me, and are happy for me, and would like to into shape, but ... you haven't started yet. I know how hard it is, I've known how hard it is for the past 18yrs but, it is worth it!! Does it get easier? Somedays, but most days, .. no. So don't wait around until a time you think it will be easier, it might not come. I'm hoping to lose all my weight within a two to two and a half year period,  to many of you that may seem like a long time. Heck, to me that seems like a long time, until I look behind me and see that time flies so quickly. It's almost summer, then the hollidays, and then the new year. Is there going to be a new you? Or just more of you to love?? smiles.  If  you think it's easier for me than for you, I don't think that's true. When the alarm went off at 4:40 this morning I struggled, I wanted to go back to sleep, but I didn't. Everyday, all day long, those decisions have to be made. Do I eat this? Do I skip exercise? Am I going to be Happy or Crappy today? At the end of the day you're only accountable to yourself an the Man upstairs. You probably have no idea how nice you can be to yourself when you start reaching your goals, and yes, I'm even talking to those that have low self esteem like me. OK, done preaching for now, just want other people to start feeling better about themselves.... it's nice. Smiles
As a report , I still have not cheated on my diet, not once. I did not exercise all weekend due to a migraine(first one in months, benefits of being healthier, used to get two or three a month), this one was delinately hormonal. Yesterday morning I was back up for my hour walk, and I did a 20 min Jullian workout last night. My steps for yesterday were 15,754, wearing my pedometer has been a good reminder to get up and moving. I want to lose 2lbs this week, don't know if I can, but I'm going to try.

Weigh In..

Big Smiles!!! So totally worth skipping the chocolate covered strawberries(although it did take 3 days to come to that conclusion). I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 167.5lbs, that means I'm down 4 lbs this week!!!! This is big for me, this is the lowest I've weighed since delivering my first son. It has been over 16 years since I've even seen the scale say 168lbs, and I've beat that by a half pound ... YaY! Another thing to be excited about, I think I'm less than 10lbs away from not being considered obese anymore. That will be another happy day.
As a way of reporting, I still have not cheated on my diet, and I have been walking at least 15,000 steps a day. My pedometer is not working, but I'm fairly certain I've been doing enough steps each day. My new pedometer should come in the next day or two, then my count will be more accurate. My goal this week is to maintain my weight, sometimes that's hard to do after a 4lb loss, but that's what I'm going for.
I made cheese stuffed tomatoes yesterday, I think they would have been yummy if I had remembered to prep the tomatoes the right way as shown on the Pioneer Women's blog. I forgot to salt the inside of tomatoes and flip them over to render out some of their juice, so thet turned out kind of mushy. The biggest bummer is that they were supposed to be a special treat for me because I made a bum load of yummy french toast for my kids and hubby. Oh well, let's not forget that I  am down 4lbs!!! Well I'ts a new week, no time to be a slacker, I'm planning on being healthier next Monday than I am today...you??

AAAAHHHGG!!

I JUST TURNED DOWN CHOCOLATE COVERED STRAWBERRIES FROM THE BERRY FACTORY!!!!That was way,way harder than anything I've turned down lately. Low carb cheesecake, low carb cheesecake, low carb cheesecake(see proceeding post). Somebody tell me it is worth it.

Lunch

I'm going out to lunch today at the cheesecake factory, and I'm totally excited. I already went online and picked out my menu items so I don't have to sift through other yummy food when I get there. I am going to have a BLT salad, a yummy steak, and I'll follow it up with a slice of low carb cheesecake. Smiles, Smiles,and more Smiles!

I Cried a Little

For more pictures of my beautiful daughter and her junior prom check out my family blog, Cofessions of Chaos. This blog is all about me and my weightloss journey....  When I saw these pictures I cried a little. For the first time in many, many, MANY years I liked how I looked in a picture ( or 4 pictures). To me I finally look just like any other normal size mom, not perfect, but not enormous. Yeah!! Thanks Ruth, I'm sure some of it has to do with your amazing picture taking abilities. I might not be losing as fast as I want, but eventually I will reach my goals.

"Just my thoughts"

I choose to live by choice, not by chance;

to make changes, not excuses;

to be motivated, not manipulated;

to be useful, not used;

to excel, not compete.

I choose self-esteem, not self-pity.

I choose to listen to the inner voice, not random opinions.

- Unknown

Weigh in

Well it was one those slow weeks, I lost exaclty NOTHING. I weighed in at 171.5 lbs. I lost nothing and gained nothing(good thing). Normally I would be a little more bummed but my church outfit yesterday did wonders for my figure and I got tons of compliments, who cares what the scale said this morning.SMILES. Once again I show that it really doesn't take very much to make myself happy. I forgot my pedometer on Saturday so I don't know how many steps I did but I know it wasn't enough because I spent at least three hours of the day doing hair for the prom. Pictures to be posted as soon as I get them on my Confessions of Chaos blog.
As a way of checking in I should record that I have not cheated, even once, on my low carb diet since beginning it again last month. As an example of a typical Sunday afternoon, and the temptations that just about kill me, I made the family lasagna, garlic bread, corn , and a salad. I made myself, fish (not my favorite, but it is supposed to be good for me), and salad. For those of you who adore fish, this probably doesn't seem too bad, but for me ... I ADORE CARBS!!! ok, ok I got that out of my system, and I did live through yesterday, and I will live through today. My only question is will it EVER get easier???   I'm having fun with the words in CAPS today, is it bugging you yet? My steps for today are up to 9,000 and it's 10am, I have realized that I'm going to have to add back in some of the cardio that was hurting my knee and shoulder because I'm just not seeing the progress I want to with walking only. I'll try not to come up with excuses and do a little extra today,  but then again I am the QUEEN of excuses. Have a good day and make it a good week.... get up and do something .

"Tip of the Day"

Enjoy compliments about your appearence, do not disregard, sometimes we are too critical of ourselves and cannot see or really appreciate the progress we are making. Use the compliments to build yourself up and work yourself harder. This one is a hard one for me, but I'm getting better.

Follow my Family

For those of you who have wanted to know more about what is going on with my family you can follow my family at   http://carlsonconfessionsofchaos.blogspot.com/  Please remember to check in on me here at Sherri's Sharings, you and your comments motivate me daily and I don't want to lose that

Pilates tomorrow instead

I skipped pilates yesterday because I got enough activity in. I almost doubled my step goal, I ended up with over  27,000 steps. I went for my walk and then played eighteen holes of golf. This morning I was up at 5am for my walk, my body rebelled from the time I took my first step. It was one of the harder workouts I have done in a while. My body is so sore, I was able to get a two hr massage this afternoon, but after that I did absolutely nothing. I ended up with only 11,230 steps, but my body is still hurting. Wouldn't it be cool if the whole time your body was sore it was burning more fat and calories. I would be able to get away with exercising hard once or twice a week, oooooo dreamy. Time to get to sleep, I'm supposed to get at least 7 hrs of sleep a night and it's already too late for tonight.

Weigh in...

Finally some progress ...yay! When I got on the scale this morning I was 171.5lbs, that means I'm down 2.5lbs. My pedometer has motivated me to get up and get moving. Friday I did over 20,000 steps, Saturday over 17,000. Today I struggled a little but I did not get into bed until I had reached 15,000. Tomorrow I want to get at least 15,000 and  do 40 minutes of Pilates. Who's with me, I want to work hard this week and see what results I can get. I tried on a bathing suit yesterday and let's just say it's going to take A LOT of hard work. Bring it On!!

"Just my thoughts"

You know those puzzles that have three different pieces.  A head, middle, and bottom that can be miss matched with other heads, middles, and bottoms? Well  I feel like I've got the right head and at least my middle is human, but how the heck did I get stuck with this hippo butt?

More motivation needed

I don't know what my problem is but my lack of motivation is not motivating me. Really? you ask. Sorry but that is the only way I can explain it. This week my only motivation to exercise has come from this blog. I'm so thankful to those who keep checking in on me, you've made a difference. That being said I need more of an inner desire to accomplish my goals, over all I know I've done pretty good, but all it takes are a couple of weeks of not losing weight to get me down. I've stated it before, my mind is a rollercoaster, it changes from day to day, and right now I just need some covincing to throw my hands up in the air, scream, and enjoy the ride. I've decided to join a couple of my sisters and put my pedometer back on. I haven't worn it in more than a year because at one time I didn't need the extra push, I was way self-motivated. My week has played out a little like this... wake up at 6am, skpping morning exercise, instead of 5am like I should, go to work, come home, go to various track meets and golf tournaments to watch my kids, come home and veg, around 9:30pm I think to myself ...CRAP, I didn't exercise yet and I'm going to have to blog that. That thought at least produces a little work out, last night it was 30 minutes, pathetic!!smiles. So my starting goal  will be 15,000 steps. When I was really doing well I was walking 23 to 24,000 steps a day. I don't know if I can do that with a job that requires me to literally sit on my butt for 5 hours, but I can always make higher goals later. So let the games begin...  ya, I totally agree, that was stupid.... how 'bout... here's to new motivation. smiles