Holy Push-Ups Batman!

55 minutes of Chest, Shoulders, and Triceps then 16 minutes of Ab Ripper X.  I pushed as hard as I could and by the end I was sobbing! I don't know if I'll be able to hold a pencil tomorrow, but tonight I did my best. That's all . . . Goodnight.

Weigh in ... or NOT !

So this was my first week on the P90X diet and I'm sure some of you are interested to know what the scale read. Alas, this cannot be, for I was a weak soldier in the weightloss war this week.  My week started great, I was writing down everything I ate, tracking my calories and portions of protein, carbs, veggies, ect. Wednessday I treated myself to a little frozen yogurt, very little, and I had a dairy portion to use so it was all good. Then came Thursday... and again, I did well for most of the day. Then the evening came, and so did the rationalizing. I wanted frozen yogurt again, but I had not bought any for my poor carb filled freezer, so sad." Well", thought my well rounded, perfectly will powered mind, " ice cream is EXACTLY like frozen yogurt! Smiles!!" - yes, my brain thought the smiles- wicked brain. I crossed off a dairy and a fat and ate exactly a 1/2 cup (right out of the measuring cup to be sure), and wrote down the 120 calories that were contained fortwith ( ya, I don't knbow if that is a word, or if it's spelled that way, or if it would even be used that way, it just sounded cool). Anyway, at this point I figured I was still good and when I woke up on Friday I was down 2 lbs, woo hoo, so excited. That is when I got a little too sure of myself (I blame it on my brain, remember it had all ready convinced me that yogurt and ice cream were the same thing), and gleefully reminded myself that it was my anniversary. I proceeded to persuade myself that I had been doing so good on my diet and exercise that I could eat whatever I wanted for the rest of the weekend. I know what your thinking, " Sherri, that is a pretty big leap, yogurt, to ice cream, to WHATEVER YOU WANT!" Well what can I say? Why couldn't you have spoken up before? Why couldn't I have one of your rational brains instead of this one that has continually tempted me until I had doubled my wedding weight + 20 something pounds?
Without dragging this out any longer, those of you who have followed me for a while, you know that I can gain abnormally large amounts of weight in a very minimal amount of time. Weigh in at 177lbs, ya, I know, stupid brain. Unfortunately I"ve grown attatched... crooked smiles. Yesterday I started again and did well till after dinner, then my friend who I've told you of before, "left over Father's Day cake" called my name and I ran to it. I knew that this was the wrong choice, I'm not that dilusional, and I and ate a piece as quitely and as quickly as I could, hoping beyond all hope that one of my precious children wouldn't find me and ask me "You're not on your diet right now?"  I hate that question!!! 
I thought long and hard about not posting this week because I'm not real proud of this side myself, but you know what, This is me... This is real!! This is Not an easy journey, but it is a journey I'm going to finish! I've decided, that for a while, I'll have to start posting everything I'm eating again since my own "good sence" hasn't been kicking in. Next week  hopefully, I can post exactly how this new diet is working for me. Thanks for listening... have a great day!

"Just my Thoughts"

Being overweight has it's benefits ... every time I do jumping jacks I have my own cheering section. Unfortunately it is my upper thighs clapping for me, but I take encouragement where I can get it.

Weigh in .....REALLY?

Once again I think I am going to make changes to my diet. I got on the scale this morning and it read 171 lbs. That is totally the WRONG direction... up 2 lbs .. so sad. Am I depressed? Heck no! Should I be? I have busted butt for three weeks and I know, weight up or down, that my body has benifitted from the hard work I've put in. Having said that , something has got to be changed, cause' you better believe I'm not going to do all this work and gain weight. I know myself way to well, and all it will take is waking one morning in a delightfully hormonal mood and my cupboards and refrigerator will shake in fear of the monster released on them. Today, however, I am in control (for the moment) and I think a small change in diet is needed. Ok, maybe not that small, but I tell myself that so I that I know I can do it. I am switching to the P90X diet plan with a few revisions that I might have to adapt as I go along. Biggest difference between what I'll be doing and the actual plan is calories. The plan wants me to eat 1800 calories a day, but I really think they are catering to fit people who want to become super human, not 40lbs overweight. I know that you have to burn 3,000 more cal. than you eat to lose l lb, so right now I will be aiming for 11 to 1300 cal. a day. I will be following the recommended structure of the diet though. A rough explaination would be split up into units of about 100 calories.   5 of protein, 1 fruit, 2 veggie( only 50 cal. each), 2 dairy,1 fat,1 carb,1 snack and 1 condiment. I think this will provide me with some energy I have been missing out on and yet hold me accountable so that not all 1300 cal. come from carbs like they have in the past. This is going to be harder to follow because when you are eating few enough carbs your amounts of food and fats are not limited, as you can see, they are now. Wish me luck... I would really like to NOT gain this next week.
This is the start of week 4 of this excersize program, it is a rest week...but I don't get to rest! Rest week just means that I don't lift weights this week, I still have 6  hour to an hour and a half workouts, we'll see how it goes. Oh, forgot to mention instead 8  8oz glasses of water a day , I need to drink 8  12oz glasses.  The bathroom will quickly become my best friend ... yuck.

Weigh in....

So Monday the scale read 169 lbs.... so I'm headed in the right direction. Some things I've already avoided this week; baked ziti, homemade donuts, fruit pizzas ( the ones you make with sugar cookies, smiles), and homemade bread sticks and pizza. The weight is not coming off super fast with P90X, but everything is firming up rather quickly. I have not missed any workouts yet, and I'm in my third week. I'm still very impressed with the workouts. I have found that I'm not real fond of working out on Saturdays, but I plan on keeping it up. When I started the workouts all of my push ups were done on my knees, I can now do about a third of them the good oldfashioned way. I still think it will be a miracle if I can ever do a pull up, but my goal is to do one before my 40th birthday, so I've got three years... we'll see.
My boys (Anthony & Nathan) have found a new passtime during church. They sit to my sides and play with the extra "soft fat" that hangs from my arms. Some of you might find that gross or depressing, but not me, I have to bring less pens and paper now...... SMILES

"Just my Thoughts"

I've heard that bigger muscles will get hungry and eat your fat so.... I'm all about pumping iron. Lucky muscles...a feast awaits you!

Weigh In...

Ok, here it goes.... the scale read 170 lbs, yes that is up 3 lbs since my last posted, but I will survive. smiles The only thing I'm really bummed about is being knocked out of the 160's when it seems it was so hard to get there in the first place. Well if there is a program that will help me get there, P90X is it. I do think I need to maybe up the amount of carbs I'm eating because I don't want to go into starvation mode and have my body start eating up muscle instead of fat. I'm going to do more snacking on nuts this week and see if I feel a little better. Just in case if haven't stated it enough, I love the P90X program, results or not ( I can't imagine there not being results), this is something I see sticking to.